Accompany of Gray

I have held it all I have taken the fall I know the pain Of life’s domain The endless rapture Of its pointless capture It seems so mundane And all efforts appear vain I thought I was upon the bottom This end of endless existence I thought I was forgotten All out of resistance I just lived as though everything was gone And when I die I will finally belong But at the bottom I sat Gazing with envy At the lives others had Seemingly free At one point I saw you At far you seemed true And light shined out As if to shout That all was good And nothing ever would Hurt, harm, or sting Just you, just being I stared with amazement I stared with awe This feeling was constant The break to this law So I started to move I walked forward To try and disprove That you don’t have to hurt There is no need for pain But the answer was curt Like a forsaken bane All the light there is In this world of twists Couldn’t stop the shadows That always follows From casting down Its light and darkness upon the ground We will always have bad Accompanied by the good And something seem sad This is how it should Be, and is not quite Just the black Or just the white But a jumble Of extraordinary dismay Everything and anything Is really gray