Abandonment

At a young age i was abandoned most of my life i felt like nothing Asking questions that will never be answered. My mind feels disassembled not knowing what i did to deserve this and are these growing pains really worth it was i meant to be or an accident you see, this just doesn't make sense to me. Such a young age lost my innocence trying to feel love, but only getting resistance and the distance, is so far can't be reached by train or car. Did you ever really want me to be dad how do you even sleep, i bet not bad well im glad, im not like you and all the feelings of missing and hurting are through, from your abandonment.