Abandoned--Part One
To watch you leave, watch you walk out
Hurt so much and filled me with tremendous doubt
That we were every truly friends
It was as if you really didn’t care in the end
This life, so full of secrets and lies
I never understood any of it…and you walk away, back turned away from the silent cries
My heart wrenches with unmendable grief
Why did you ever come around! Why must I hold on to this false belief
That you ever cared when you really did not
Your lies and secrets, so full of raging hate, I tried to love you…I tried to show you a friend all for naught.
I do not understand…and I never will because you will not allow me too
I want to understand…I want to help you and be here for you
But all you do is push me aside…push me away
Bury me in silence, stab me with your misery…but still I wish you to stay
But you do not, you still leave, still walk out that door
And I fall…hard to the unforgiving cold, hard floor
Weeping bitterly tears of repressed sorrow and pain
This empty void growing, tearing me from the inside…but the smiles I still feign
I still walk this crooked path that leads to nowhere
Wondering if maybe…just maybe I will find you here
Because you’ve stolen into my battered heart and made me care
And now I cannot let you go…not ever…I wouldn’t dare
Yet you still do not care about the hurt…the tears
You still just walk away, continuing to spreading your fears
And she goes with you
You knew that she would and you allowed her to
Copyright © Rebecca Larkin | Year Posted 2012
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