A Softer Way To Die

A Softer Way to Die We live and study life We pray that somehow God changes his rules. No one wants to die No one wants to follow Those complicated laws; I mean no lie-ing - no steal-ing no sex - before marriage no Fornicating, no killing No lust-greed or defiling the earth. Amen. All we can do now is try to find " A softer way to die". Pick your battles... There are many ways to die. I asked, God why? When mom threw a "Monkey wrench" in my world Answering - "We all have to die" I immediately winked at God... Thinking to myself (not I). Gave him a little nudge; Sidebar God: I said to God Adamantly "I do not want to die" "Can you change the rules "? I never heard back from him On that subject. I went to him again God "Can you at least Keep me with a mom- I said "So that I won't be an Orphan like Shirley Temple”? He did get back to me on that And Mom is Alive and well Plan A. (living forever) Still not executed. Once again contemplating Thoughts on how I want to die. I could not think of a pleasant way To die, none that seemed appealing. Nor any options that would be fun. hmmm, eat myself to death. Playing chicken with the train, Might prove thrilling. As time grew nigh My thoughts continued .... On a softer way to die. Childhood gone, middle age gone' Old age approaching fast and furious Destroying me like a sudden Approaching hurricane... This storm knocked out my lights Memory gone now. Forgetting my life- my loved ones Forgetting my friends, Children, and foes alike Forgetting my wrongs - my sins and accomplishments all. Everything's gone. So, now What do I do?... How can I rewrite my life, Take account. Of that which I remember not. The realities if my existence Has been wiped out from The Forest Fires burning In my mind’s eye. Have no recordings of Who loved me or of who I shall never forgive. How will I know that I ever even lived? Taking my dark blank pages into The afterlife- My shadowy Existence ends. I feel no pain I Have no thoughts, Have nothing to contemplate. For I have asked to live forever Or that I die a, softer way Forgetting to eat Forgetting to drink- Forgetting to swallow Forgetting to breath... Forgetting this life- I close my eyes and fade away. painlessly © Vicki Acquah