A Promise

I know that sometimes you pray, I’ll make you the most secure guarantee today. I lay in my bed about to sleep, I can’t help but to think so deep. Tears flow down my cheek, My face starts to look like a creek. I think of a different world then that I know, Like when the gift of my heart was given in a bow. If someone out there is who you are meant to be, I want to see you happy even though I’d be dead if it isn’t me. I know for sure I want to see our world age, It wouldn’t be fair though to make you feel in a cage. The tears continue to flow, About a world I don’t wish to know. I can’t hold you back on trying new things, Even though I feel like getting rings. I know I will put my heart through lots with hope of return, However I can’t promise stalemate with my heart feeling the burn. My nose is now running with moisture from pain, I hold my pillow wishing it was your hair I brush like a mane. Life has had many lessons already taught to me this I know, When you finally find what you’re looking for don’t ever let go. If this isn’t the world I’m meant to bear, Then as always my life will be unfair. My past is my past which lacks this burn, This direction I hope we never turn. With all the things physically I’ve been through, Without hesitation I’d go through it all again for you. Our date of remembrance is September twenty seven 2005, It’s the 1st date in memory I felt so alive. As I cry some more hoping I won’t have to make a hard choice, I realize our love right now is something to rejoice. I ask that you don’t give yourself to anyone else till the end is near, Each time I say this line out comes a new tear. To say if you love something you should let it free, It’s hard to believe they were talking to me. I grab my tissues to try & wipe tears in shame, I then realize it just brings my heart more pain. I now close my eyes & count to ten, In hope of getting rest so I can see you again. This is hard to rest from with heart needing glue, I just got to say it Larissa, darling, I Love you. Please if you must take a step away, Don’t ever forget those words I say. I can barely say anymore, Without dropping crying once again & won’t get up from the floor. I love you Hun remember that forever more…..