A Letter of Love/Hate

This hurts too much, Even though at times Its the best thing ever. However, the pain I feel right now Is destroying all that I am. I feel worthless and dumb. Vunerable and used. I also feel loved and special. Beautiful and wanted. These feeling are so extreme in every which way possible. I love how I feel when with you I hate how I feel guilty when we part I love looking in your eyes I hate when mine cry Your fingers along my face also touches her Those lips that drive me crazy Are sleeping against her neck tonight I love who I am around you I hate what I have turned into I love the way you make me feel I hate that she must feel that as well No matter how good it feels This pain is too much to bear I love you I truely truely do But the hurt is not worth The random few moments of bliss. Goodbye, my love-hate lover Goodbye **Note** This is a letter/poem I wrote for someone special. But it moves me so much every time i read it, I thought maybe someone else would enjoy reading it as well. 'To write is to share with the world, how we all feel but never speak of' Lisa