Why Hurt the One You Say You Love??

We say we love each other,but can't stand to look at each others face. I look at the man who once truly loved me,and gave me comfort with his embrace. All I do is hurt,cry,and wonder what has happened throughout the years, Because now,every day,I drown in my own tears. We once truly loved each other,and happiness was all around us,No one could stop us,We were unseperable,...Unstoppable. I think whats happening is we are growing Older,wiser,Stronger, Maybe thats why your love is no longer! Do you know how bad I hurt?? Do you now how much I care?? Do you know how much I need you?? Do you even know I'm there?? We say we hate each other.But hate is such a strong word. Should we really say that to each other? What was it that you really heard? Did you hear songs of joy , when those words were spoken? Where you hurt by what I said? I guess I'll never know or understand how you feel,Or what exactly is going through your head. The sad thing about this is...All the hurtful things we say out of anger ,all the hurtful words that are said, Have made me come to realize,That I might just be better of dead! Who does the one I married,and love,Insist on hurting me?? Am I that bad of a woman?? Is my hair too short,Is my body that bad?? I'll never know I guess,Ill just continue hating myself,and staying sad. Why can't you trust me? Are things from the past haunting you,..and you think all women are whores,all the same?? No matter what you think or say,I love you,And I love saying your name, See your my husband ,and saying that ,I have no shame!! Let go of the past ,our lives are too short,and going by so fast.Why treat the one you love so bad??? I guess just looking at me,and the smell of my skin,and the sway in my walk,all just make you mad. I guess all I have left to do ,Is show you. Show you how much I love you, Show you that we were meant to be , Because without you baby,There would be no me!!!