Surviver

At the age 23 I struggled with my horrible addiction of heroin I had tried to stop but its not easy. Going almost four years being addicted to the devil I had many complications and several hospital visits sometimes it was 3-4 days then it could have been weeks as I lay there miserable,in constant pain due to absects from where I just didn't care sometimes and shot up where ever and there would be times that I'd miss I remember several visits to the hospital direct admits to the ICU unit.. The infection was so bad they would have to treat me with antibiotics for atleast 4-5 days then they would have to lance the site of where I injected that meant more antibiotics eventually when I would be sick the hospital would treat me like a piece of crap discriminate and judge me,reminder I'm not there for drugs. Honesty I don't know what all happened I just know I had been sick for a week or two and my parents call 911 to come get me they take me to the hospital I was so sick that phenoium turned into septic shut down all my organs I had flat lined several times so I was life lined to a hospital in Indianapolis Indiana!! Due to me being so bad off and in pain,very high fever flat lined 5-6times a day lifeless unstable I had been put into a coma thats where I laid for 3 1/2 months on life support, ventilator, chest tubes,trachea, feeding tube you name it.. Doctor's told my family I wasn't going to make it and that they was pulling the plug my parents rufused to let that happen. As I'm laying there lifeless 60%dead no control over anything I'm at the gates of heaven its so beautiful there I was so ready to go but my grandpa and other family refuse to let me in.. Due to all the medicine they had me plus a few of the meds they was given me was causing my blood circulation not flow through my legs and feet so when I finally wake up 3 1/2 months later I find out my feet/toes are dead and that ive to have heart surgery to replace the valves and put in a pacemaker. And my toes amputated I was terrified, devasted but it had to be done but I kept canceling surgery's I was alone and scared my parents had just got arrested I had noone. So they send me to a nursing home my sister begged me to have the surgery I so I did july 19 2013 I'm confined to a wheelchair!! Still have not had the heart surgery just to scared.. Being an addict really messed my life up!! I'm not going to sit here and say I'm healthy I'm not. But I am a surviver