Her Wasted Years

Sobbingly she said, I've cried over you a thousand rivers full of tears. Why have you never shown any emotions towards my feelings or my fears? Did you ever once consider the pain I suffered for you? Have you ever thought of the heartache you caused by the things you do? The only guilt I carry is the love I dare not end. What is it you have over me, why I dare not call you friend? I thought when we were younger that you would change your ways. The only thing that has changed is the hardness of your heart so black and so decayed. Without love in a marriage it simply wilts away. That's why I have to leave you I do not wish to stay. As those words I hear over and over, steadily banging inside my head. Had I listened with compassion, but I listened with contempt to her words instead. She warned and pleaded almost a daily thing. Now I feel the heartache and the sorrow that not being loved can only bring. I want to say I'm sorry, reach out and bring her back. But I don't want to hurt her again I'm afraid it's morals that I lack. I know she's probably grieving, so much of her life she threw away. Wasted on me, could there be a doubt, and my childish ways. Wishing won't bring her back, and I doubt I'd ever change. The one thing that I hope for you instead of bitterness you find true happiness and love you can exchange. This is just a poem so please don't get angry at me. The real sad part is it happens too often .