726 Days

726 Days 726 days 726 days until I’m gone Like a Leaf from a tree Or a bird from a nest I’ll be leaving home Moving on from the past I’ll be moving on from the moving From one house to another From week to week Or month to month From a life I created Only to move and create again From packing and unpacking And finally just leaving things In a box From wondering when The next move is 726 days I’ll be moving from not having Anyone to talk to For the first fourteen years of my life From not having a true friend Or someone’s shoulder to lean on From not having Not knowing What family truly is From the cold un-functional life I have lived for fourteen years Until I finally saw The truth I’ll be moving from all the bruises Ones that have covered My arms, my shoulders My legs and my back From all the hand marks That has landed on my face And the scares on my heart From the wounds deep inside From being told How useless and horrid I am To see, and the shame I remind them of Being said I was a mistake One that should be forgotten From being told I will become Nothing and believing it all 726 days Until I will be leaving the ones Who bring up memories I would soon like to have left alone From being reminded and reliving the experience Through my nightmares Nightmares where I see the evil in there eyes The horrible smell of their breath The press of their weight on me My tears running down my face Their fingers And their bodies Tearing my insides apart Violating me As no child should ever be violated Over, and over again like its happening again I’ll be moving from two little kids Who I have raised Who I have taken care of Feeding and protecting them And although I may miss them I will be letting Them making their own decision Whether to stay Or come with me 726 days Until I leave that life And walk into another Where I can finally settle in With a friend Who has showed me true friendship Who has listened and helped me With my past Who has reserved judgment And shown only kindness and friendship To move in with her family With open arms and a smile on their faces Time and time again And treated me like their own Who has shown me what family is Who I can never tell how grateful I am No matter how I try I’ll be moving in 726 days…..