242
Your name is 242
Says the yellow paper
At the end of a patient pen
And ballpoint Checkmark
Readied with fingers, anxious
to continue shuffling
A deck of cards
Of which I am one
Or 242
But in any case,
zero
Because with one to ten on a scale
I usually fail around
The part where I protest
That my dress fits me all wrong
And when this lipstick, which is present for
Each song, each cursory choice
tries to make the air
A bit more pleasant
and make me seem
A bit more forgetful
Instead of consciously wrong-
THAT
Is where I fall
My heart is a little less numb
and little more dumb than it should be
But I guess a couple more hits
Is always what it will be
And a couple more scars
Will make me what I should be
I don’t want to be lovely
I want you to love me
Even half-heartedly I’ll stay
If for a moment I won’t be zero
But a name under your
Ballpoint hand
But I am only lovely
on the tip of a needle
And each side is sharp
So, where the sharp side may fall
So will I, blood in my eyes pounding
To get out, but there only be
242
tears
To cry
Copyright © Allison Ballard | Year Posted 2013
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