2000 Miles Away

My heart is far away from me, i wonder if hes dreaming of me. i know im in his thoughts. All the "i love yous" and "i miss you babes" tell me he cares. I gave him my6 body and soul, then why is my mind playing lies of deception. Insecure was never my basis. He betrayed me once and i took him back. Trust and honesty holds deep yet the memories resound vividly. Who are we? couples, lovers, future husband and wife? The questions never stop coming. Is this how it is when your in love, or am i in love. For so many years , i pondered, could i ever love? I say it so easily like its meant to come out but so fast i move on. I dont think my heart has ever been broken. There never was a wall to rebuild. I feel no sadness, is it my strength and feminism? Or can i just not feel those big emotions.? With him, theres that spark though, the happiness when we talk, that eminent smile, it cant fade. The sensual joy in his arms. Is it pure lust and satisfaction, are we just nymphos for eachother? Is it love? the song replays like a scratched record. He is mine and i am his, we are to last forever and always, so it must be love!