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A searing pain Shoots through my arm As i pull the cold blade Across the ivory of my flesh I look at what i've done And i see the bright red of living ecstasy Letting it sit to gently cry Slipping out of the throbbing flesh I leave this worlds harsh reality And find myself in my own mind Where no one tries to see What they cannot find in me I felt alive! Not dead inside That blade made it happen That highest of high I enjoyed the great sight But then the high died It seemed my world Became unfurled As i realised what i did (again) Another scar to add to life Just as regretful as the last The pleasure i persued And the pain i let loose Effected more than just me It harmed the love of my life All because of my strife That bottled up inside I swore to him I won't take my last breath To lie down and sleep For 100,000 years I'll be here at your side To see your warm smile No matter how great the pain